Moments of magic: From frustration to fascination
When I became limited in every part of my life, I instinctively did what I had always done—looked for answers, tried to push through, and trained myself to keep going. But I soon discovered that the routines and habits that once made me strong were no longer helpful. With only a fraction of my former energy left, I felt crushed by all the things I had to let go of. It was easy to spiral into negative thinking. My self-talk became darker with each new limitation.
What I didn’t know at the time was how much that negativity was slowing down my recovery.
I started to shift by practicing gratitude—deliberately, one tiny invisible step at a time. Over time, that practice became a way of being. I learned to be genuinely happy for the small things. I even found joy seeing others walk outside, even when I was confined to bed.
That change started long before Covid, during a meditation event led by Michael Pilarczyk. A guided meditation paired with music overwhelmed me with emotion and left a lasting impression. I began meditating daily using the Meditation Moments app. This practice anchored me through the early days of Long Covid. Later, I explored other guided meditations and teachings from Jay Shetty, Deepak Chopra, Vishen Lakhiani, and Tony Robbins.
Meditation didn’t just calm me—it helped me notice. I became more aware of how I felt emotionally and physically. That awareness was the first step toward reclaiming some form of control.
To retrain my brain, I started reading again—but this time differently. I listened to audiobooks while reading along, starting with Think Like a Monk. My goal was simple: to retain even a little bit of information. Then I joined the Genius Book Club and read Limitless by Jim Kwik. The group kept me accountable, and even though I often forgot what I’d read, I was mesmerized by the rare moments I could recall and apply the lessons. These flashes of memory felt like tiny miracles.
Through Jim Kwik’s workshops, I first learned about brainwave states. If I was sleeping this much and still struggling cognitively, I wondered—what if something was off with my Gamma and Beta waves? That curiosity became a spark. I even asked myself, “What if I could use my Delta state to heal or create?”
My mindset shifted. I went from frustration to fascination. That was the moment magic returned to my life.
I followed that spark to Mindvalley, where I began meditating with different teachers and learning about visualization for healing. I’m still on that path—still learning how to use my brain states to grow, to imagine, and to heal.
But something even deeper began to unfold after I joined the Gita Circle. As I explored the teachings of the Bhagavad Gita As It Is, I felt myself aligning not only with my inner world, but with something far greater—a divine presence, a sacred intelligence that felt like home. Meditation became more than just a practice—it became a doorway to a deeper truth.
Moments of magic now often arrive in stillness. A message, an image, or a wave of clarity that feels like it doesn’t come from me, but through me. It’s as if life is whispering back now, and I’ve become quiet enough to hear it.
There’s a sense of alignment with the universe I never knew was possible. I feel guided—not in a grand, dramatic way, but in the smallest nudges, the gentle yeses, the sacred pauses. I no longer feel I’m fighting life. I’m flowing with it.
And that, to me, is the greatest magic of all.
Reflections for you:
Where might life already be whispering to you?
What everyday thoughts are you feeding your mind—and how are they shaping your healing?
What small practice (like gratitude or meditation) could shift your inner world?
Are you focusing on what’s lost, or what’s still possible?
What is one tiny, joyful moment you can notice and celebrate today?